In the Rain

It's in the song, flying off each note;

It's in every moment that you are alone in your head.

It's in the words coming off their lips...

You pretend to see through them...

But you see and feel it all over again.

Strength seemed easier a year ago

Hope seemed possible.

Faith was just another thing..

Another thing that never helped.

The emotions run deep and heavy

But you choke them back..

Choke on the tears and smile.

You are suffocating by everything that isn't 

And drowning in all that everything else is.

You say nothing because they won't understand.

They try, and they get tired so they move on.

But standing alone in the rain is where they leave you.

You could have been surrounded and still be so alone.

You missed it by miles and hours.

You close your eyes to relax..

The wind in your hair

and the rain on your face...

You hear them say they are there for you..

You remember them being there once.

You sit in the dark and hear each note..

They always say you aren't...

but you are alone.

~~grb 6/5/16