From Before

Its the way it ripples over my hand 

Touching so gently as it passes through

And the feel of the wind that makes it unforgettable. 

The moon paints the water like only an artist can do, 

And outlines the ocean with its magnificent light. 

I can see his face so clear

as if I could reach into the water and pull him out. 

Closing my eyes, I can feel all around me: 

The stars' warmth, the waters' fear and the sands' need to travel. 

I could only wish to feel more alive..

And oh how long it has been!

~~grb 6/7/2014 @6:46 am and completed on 6/7/2015 @6:48am. 

Trying

The night crawls over me and it's almost unbearable.

I toss and turn trying to rid the visions out of my head.

I see your face and feel your hand on mine...

it's haunting. 

The days get colder and the nights feel empty.

Moving forward seems almost impossible 

As I stand on the edge of the cliff.

Closing my eyes, I feel almost free.

Every day I try to find it...

The reason I wake up...

The reason to open my eyes

And move on with my day.

People are around me everywhere

And feeling alone should be almost impossible but it isn't.

I find my smile and a bit of my spirit

But nothing is real behind my eyes. 

I can't forget how I had it all.

I finally had everything I have been needing and wanting

but now my anger finds me in full force.

I had you...

And now you are gone.

 I need you but you are no longer here.

You were taken from me so unfairly.

And now my tears fall and I can't catch them.

I am picking up the pieces

but they are missing a huge part...

you.

~~grb 11/12/16

To Dwain with all my love, I miss you handsome.