Thursday, June 21, 2012

My Gargoyle, Bronx

 June 18, 2002-June 12, 2012

 He didn't eat at the table 
He didn't tell me he loved me  
With beautiful words...
But I knew he did.
He didn't go to school
Or work, 
He didn't bring in money
Or buy groceries...
He didn't yell at me when I pissed him off...
But he let me know.

He was there when I was broken,
He was there when my son felt defeated.
He was there for each birthday
and each scratch my son had.
He was there when I felt I had no one....
He was always there.

He tried to sing, he tried to laugh even.
But I knew he hurt when he cried.
He had a smile that only we could see.
He had a way of always making me feel better.

He wasn't human but he acted like he was
He wasn't a cat, but he sure could climb a tree.
He wasn't a lap dog but was determined to fit...
He wasn't the smartest but he sure tried.

He was a loss....a loss that breaks my heart.
A loss that brings tears to my son's eyes.

He was my dog, an ol' man, my baby boy.
He was my Bronxy, and always will be.
He will be ever so missed.

~~grb ~~  

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Whirlwind

Rethink and unwind
Relive it in your mind
Move forward.
Forgive and forget
Make mistakes, no regrets.
Move forward.

Move forward...

What does that mean, really?
We always move forward
We mean to change,
We mean to forgive
We mean to mind our own
Yet, we really just talk out of our ass.

Expectations some may have
The pedastool is now lower than the step stool
But, you still have one, right?
Move forward...like a bad bell
Ringing in my ear.

I'm a whirlwind...
I pick things up  to destroy them...
To scatter them around me 
To see what could have been
Or more, what was.
I mean to change,
My pattern may appear different
But its not. 

Move forward...

It's not black and white
It's a labyrinth in my head
Humility, embarrassment
Shame....

Move forward...

I have to figure it out. 

~~grb  2012