Drunkenness of this life I breathe
Sometimes it's blurry to me.
Waking up gets harder
And falling asleep takes longer.
It's the roller coaster of life
The weight that no one sees
It's easy to say something positive
When another can't believe.
It's the ups and downs that drag me
That sway me around the beating post
I sit here feeling busted
And beaten through my bones.
The bruising lies hidden
But I can feel it when I breathe
Perhaps I am doing my own damage
But it doesn't feel like me.
I scream to let it out
I cry where no one sees
I yell into my pillow
I drag it under me.
I carry it through shallow waters
And bury it in the sand
I leave it there and run away
But at my feet it stands.
I have tried to run away
I have tried ignorance being bliss
I have tried to laugh it away
I have tried to drown it in my kiss.
The thing is...it will never leave me
I just cannot get away.
It's like an infection that just keeps spreading
and longs for me to stay.
The days get darker
The nights get longer
The chill gets colder
And the weight gets heavier.
I'm exhausted.
~~grb 7/13~~
(this picture does not belong to me. It was sent to me via mobile and I do not own the rights nor have the name of the artist to which it belongs)
