Trying

The night crawls over me and it's almost unbearable.

I toss and turn trying to rid the visions out of my head.

I see your face and feel your hand on mine...

it's haunting. 

The days get colder and the nights feel empty.

Moving forward seems almost impossible 

As I stand on the edge of the cliff.

Closing my eyes, I feel almost free.

Every day I try to find it...

The reason I wake up...

The reason to open my eyes

And move on with my day.

People are around me everywhere

And feeling alone should be almost impossible but it isn't.

I find my smile and a bit of my spirit

But nothing is real behind my eyes. 

I can't forget how I had it all.

I finally had everything I have been needing and wanting

but now my anger finds me in full force.

I had you...

And now you are gone.

 I need you but you are no longer here.

You were taken from me so unfairly.

And now my tears fall and I can't catch them.

I am picking up the pieces

but they are missing a huge part...

you.

~~grb 11/12/16

To Dwain with all my love, I miss you handsome.