Saturday, May 19, 2012

His Life


It was a strand of hair
A new direction straight from his head.
It was potential, beauty, bright future
That lied endlessly in the palm of his hand.
Did he really understand how quickly he could blow it?

Young, talented, promising...
with the squeeze of his hand 
It could all be gone. 
Why would he decided to hold it all in one hand?

Decisions can be the hardest thing in life.
They can essentially decide who you are...
Show people what  you stand for
And what you don't. 
You can change them, but you can't take them back. 

He is headed in the right direction,
I must have faith.
But faith won't keep him straight,
Faith won't stop the world from throwing curve balls.
Faith won't hold him tight when he is scared as hell.

I can not keep him safe. 
I can not keep him straight.
I can not decide for him
And I can not give him the answers.

So I sit here feeling helpless, 
I will love him  and guide him.
And I will pray he is doing what is right.
And learns from what isn't.

~~grb  2012~~
(The picture belongs to Anne Houseman- website beautyxpose)

Friday, May 11, 2012

LIQUID COURAGE

All I think is where this is going
finding myself thinking alone...
seeing alone...

One bottle, two...

All I feel is separation yet suffocation
Always falling backwards when I should fall forward.
Falling back....

One shot, two...

Feeling the anger...
Resurfacing....redecorating my mind.
Redirecting my sanity 
to the captivity in my heart. 

The red that fills the space..
covers the green...
destroys the blue 
that should be my safety.
Dammit.

Sitting, staring, glaring...
motivating...scary. 

They are small bottles...
Liquid courage...
small but large...
they go down nicely...

Driving through my mind...
I crash in to myself...
Breaking away to feel me close..
Irony....empathy....pity....
covers me like a blanket....

Red...fills the space
Liquid courage...
For a moment, helps erase
The scars, the hurt, the pain....

One bottle, two...

~~grb 2012~~
(I do not own rights for the picture above.