I miss you

It was gonna be a good day as I was on my way to see you.

But then I remembered that I could only look up. 

It was gonna be a good day...it was gonna be a good day.

I have had years of bad dreams and plenty on my mind

I did what I had to and stayed between the lines.

I thought waking up today was gonna be easier...

It was gonna be a good day...it was gonna be just fine.

When the tear rolled down and the heat sunk in

I stared out the window and found my pain again.

I can't close my eyes without hearing you.

I can't turn up the music enough not to see you.

It was gonna be a good day...it was gonna be just fine. 

I laid on the bed and I could smell you. 

I put on my clothes and I could feel you.

I looked in the mirror and you were smiling back at me.

Another tear fell down.

 It was gonna be a rough day. 

I know I am gonna make it and it is gonna be hard.

I know I can live again but I won't feel complete.

They say that he took you because he had a plan. 

I think that's crap and just don't understand.

It's gonna be a rough day...it's gonna be hard.

I just want to sleep away my pain.

When I open my eyes I won't see you again. 

So if I cry in spurts and yell in rage

If I fall down and fall into a haze.

If I crumble in tears and can't get out of bed,

I will be okay, is what you always said. 

It was gonna be a good day, I was gonna see you.

It was gonna be a rough day, as I already knew.

It was gonna be a good day as I hold you in my heart. 

It has to be a good day but I don't know where to start. 

I miss you.

~~grb  2015~~