Walking Time Bomb

 

I tried to hold the water

but it kept slipping through my hand.

I tried to laugh and smile

but I can no longer pretend.

My heart is freezing up

My emotions are out of control...

My body is a zombie  

And my anger consumes my soul.

I am a walking time bomb

Whose clock is winding down.

I don't know how much more I can take

before I blow this town.

I sit here on my porch

wasting time that could be spent

living life and dreaming

yet I can't get off the bench.

My body is just dragging

and I'm pulling it along;

my brain can barely handle 

the weight of playing strong. 

I close my eyes to see you

And I crumble to the floor!

I can never call you,

Never hear you on the other side of the phone.

I lay here in my closet

where the walls make me feel safe

My tears are falling silently

but nothing fills that empty space.

My anger starts to boil

I can feel it burn under my skin 

And I just want to scream and punch

every single thing. 

I am a walking time bomb

Whose clock is winding down

I don't know how much more I can take

before I blow this town.

 

~~grb  2/25/2016