Dancing Soul

When the lights go down, I can feel it
    It's the tingling on my skin
       My heart moves to the music
           Moving my body to the rhythm

It's my getaway...my flying bird

Soaring through the sky

It's all vanishing within....

Just letting it go.

                 Close your eyes to hear better
            Close your mouth to express more
        Let your body guide you
   Through the rest of your life.

So when the lights go down, I will feel it

It's the tingling on my skin

The sensational goose bumps running down my spine

The butterflies in my stomach....

And the shivers running along my bones.

          Moving my body to the music
               My heart to the rhythm
                      My mind to to the words
   And my soul....well my soul just keeps on dancing.

~~grb  11/12~~

 

(artwork belongs to:  http://yanari.deviantart.com/art/Dancing-Soul-137426731)

Inside His Head, Inside His Thoughts

The wayward winds came down crashing 

Like a hurricane in my midst.

I stayed back without a reaction

But in my head it was a mess.

The night still fell but I could tell

The anger hasn't left

The thickened fog that wrapped around me

Was bound to do its best.

A tattered shirt and dirty jeans 

Reminded me of what was

The resentment hanging in the air 

Left my mind in a thickened fuzz. 

A walk on down memory lane

Can cost one's mind their sanity

The happy smiles and cold denials

Will lead them to their vanity. 

I drift and stare then disappear 

Into another life I can call my own

Carrying my burdens and pain in my heart 

I am determined to be alone.

I dare not to care and dare not to bleed

Out to anyone that thinks they have earned

A place in my life as the #1

For that, I do not need. 

The wayward winds came down crashing

And I stood here calm and alone

I stayed back without a reaction

For the outcome, I have always known.

~~grb 2012--

For you, JB

To Forget

 

if my heart forgets how to dance

will you help it to remember?

if my mind runs wild

will you help tame it?

as a tear falls 

i'm lost to the reason.

one look in my eyes 

and you can read me.

my body shivers and my hands shake.

my heart is pounding to an unknown beat.

as the world drowns me in its crazyness

i shed a tear of my wasted sanity.  

laughter once sounded wonderful

and now silence is what i need.

i feel it slipping slowly

i feel me fading away...

so if  my mind runs wild 

please tame it...

but if my heart forgets how to dance...

let me go.

~~grb~~  

                                                 

                                                 2012

A thought in normal light

in the normal light i was thinking

about the old times

i walked the street tonight

breathing in nature and feeling it wrap around me

i walked up the step to enter in...

i use to see you sitting there

remote in hand, feet kicked up

once a smile...later just disappeared.

i used to warm up to those moments 

now i walk in...dark room and cold air

i grab a blanket to warm my bones

i grab a book to warm my mind

i reach for prayer to warm my heart.

in the normal light i was thinking...

reach out...

on the long walk i was feeling...

let it be

oh when you're cold

i am not there to hold you tight

oh when you're lost

i am not there to lead you back

oh when you need to cry

i am not there to dry your eyes....

in time, you will forget

but i will walk in the normal light and think

i once did that

on the long walk on a darkened road i will remember

i use to be that for you.

I was once by your side.

I will let it be...for now...

As it is what it is.

but in my mind...

A tear falls 

oh when you are cold

remember to grab a blanket

oh when you are lost

grab a compass

i will be north

you will be south

we may never meet

but we will always know. 

~~grb~~  2012

The Inner You

It's the inside where it is dark

calmly waiting behind the darkest part it can find.

It's the inner most part that most don't want out.

The part that may cause judgement from the light around.

It's the deepest you.

It's the decisions others may find to be wrong

It lingers in the corridors of your soul.

It sets the focus for your desired dreams

And the procrastination of the ones you think you need. 

It's the inner you.

When the night falls and the sky sleeps

it longs to come out....

And you mustn't fight it. 

When the world feels like a magnetic force

and you are the magnet...

When your body feels like it's drowning 

by the world around it...

When the ultimate suffocating device 

stares right back at you in the mirror....

You grab for it. 

You let it crawl through every piece of you 

for the ultimate escape.

You feel it tear through your body 

Until you release it through your scream......

It's the inside where it is dark

calmly waiting behind the darkest part it can find.

It's the inner most part that most want out.

The part that has no fear

The part that can handle anything...

It's the deepest you.

``grb 2012``

Too Much

  The stones punctured my back on my way down.

Each stone ripping into my skin.

As my head hit the last stone it could take...

I realized I had fallen, again.

I climbed to the top before

Using every piece of my anger,

My motivation was my fear

And I hid my love behind my heart...

I was driven to not feel what had been.

And here I lie alone on the ground.

The fall was quick and exhausting.

But the pain, I am sure it's there....

Yet I am numb. 

For every stone protruding my skin

I shed a tear of blood.

For every stone I hold in my hand,

I feel the loss of my love.

For every silent thought I feel

I pray, this is too much.

~~grb  2012~~

Wicked Truth or Desperate Lie?

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"Stand tall, be strong"....I read it in a book.

His smile was his mask and his heart was his...

Pain.

He stood in his truth and lied to noone...

But sometimes, he felt as though he was his own captor. 

The image in the mirror has a shield...

Something to hide behind;

Wipe off the makeup

Remove the mask....breathe.

Every excuse in the book not to go forward

Every excuse in the book not to hold back...

Every excuse for every thing....

Can't lie about something if you never let it happen.

"The truth shall set you free."

If so, why when we tell it do we feel caged?

Why does it feel like chains on your wrist?

Like a ball hooked from the chain on your ankle?

Sometimes a lie can feel like freedom when the truth is a sinking ship. 

Ageless, beautiful, passionate...

The words can feel heavy but another lie is told.

Mean, slobbery, foolish..

And the truth shall bring down the tears.

The image in the mirror was restless,

Wiped the makeup off, removed the mask.

Removed one strap, two straps

Unbuttoned one button, two buttons, three....

Clothes to the floor.

The image in the mirror was the truth

No masks, no shields, no protection.

Not sure what to make of it, the clothes came up.

"The truth shall set you free"

Or shall it be your captor?

Wicked Truth or Desperate Lie?

~~grb  2012~~