Selfish

Selfish is a word commonly used when referring to me

I use to find it to be an annoyance, A fault,

Something I must change. 

Then one day...

I looked around and realized that I could be selfless

When nobody was looking.

I could be caring

When nobody was watching.

I could be loving

When nobody cared to see it

And I could be selfish...

When everyone was paying attention. 

Perhaps it's not a fault but a barrier...

A wall to guard my soul.

Perhaps the annoyance was others...

Others projecting their selfishness on me,

or perhaps it is what it is.

I will no longer change to fit the dress

But change the dress to fit me.

I will no longer cover over the paint

To satisfy an unsatisfiable heart.

Selfish....

It used to ring in my head with dishonor

I maybe selfish, I maybe mean,

I maybe selfless, I may not be

I may be many things...

But that's just me.

~~grb  2012~~