To Continue...

Faded, Tainted, A memory

A memory just lying around collecting dust.

Transparent, Incoherent, A dime a dozen

A dozen of particles meaning nothing.

The irony in it all...in life itself.

It was a dream I awoke to

An endless nightmare, I should say.

It was the pain in my head

The hurt in my heart

And draining of my fear.

The world has its colors and shapes

It has its beauty and its ugliness..

but when you don't know where you fit in that...

You feel isolated, shattered, detached.

At one time, something can seem so beautiful

Perfect in its own way...

Even the flaws and annoyances are comforting.

Then time passes and those things...

Well, they become just flaws and annoyances...

The irritations that lead to anger and distrust.

Those things that you kept close to your heart

That you put your everything into...

Is gone in seconds.

You live your life holding things close

Praying to one you can't see...

Faith in something that no one can prove

but it helps you...it guides you...

The things we do that don't make sense...

The gut feelings we ignore in the need of happiness

The fools we become when we stay true to love

And the depths we cross to find something that doesn't exist.

Can be our ultimate demise.

Kinda funny, isn't it?

In some "the world is playing a joke on me" kinda way?

I will laugh today at my emptiness...

My solitude and my lonely heart...

I will smile at those I know won't be there forever

And faith in one I cannot see.

I will dream of love and life that won't come true

I will be a fool to someone I care to love

I will lay in bed and dream of tomorrow that may not come....

But I will live....and I will smile...and I will laugh....

Because what else do I have to do?

~~grb~~2011