SIGNS

I see him in my dreams

I know him in my head

I love him in my heart

I misunderstand him plenty of times

And hurt him more than I can count.

But I still see him in my dreams.

I felt him wipe my tears yet he wasn’t there.

I woke up to him holding me….but it was me.

My mind plays these tricks on me when I am all alone

It doesn’t really help me.

I turned to God on this…I asked him if what I was doing was right?

I waited, impatiently for the answer…but it never came….

I sat outside by myself watching the moon come up

And the sun go down…

I opened my book to page 21...of all pages.

I looked up and saw the moon as huge, orange and round as could be…..

I walked inside to get a drink, maybe turn on some music, and Collide came on.

After that, Chasing Cars came on…..coincidence?

I sat there longer just thinking…

I am so eager to be so right that maybe I have blinded myself….

Confused myself.

I went inside to change and out of nowhere rolls out this orangeish white marble…

I cried like I had seen the best romance movie ever.

I believe in signs….I believe once in a blue moon God actually answers you.

But how could I be so sure that’s what it was?

I sit here, writing this poem with confusion in my head

But no confusion in my heart….

Could I be ultimately wrong in all of this?

Grb 2011